I know it has been a while, a long while since I've written!!
Anyhow, I am about to write about something that is one of my deepest, darkest secrets! It is very emotional and very deep and personal for me! I am struggling to type right now! There's something that is so terrifying about saying these words out loud! But there's also a freedom in saying it out loud as well!
This problem has haunted me my entire life! I am tormented by it everyday! So here it goes...........
I've just discovered in the past few days that I am a food addict, binge eater, and compulsive over eater.
I have unfortunately inherited the addictive personality gene and I am desperate for help!
I have been researching this disease the past few days and I have never cried so much in my life!
When you come to a realization like this about yourself it really brings a lot of things into perspective!
I have lived a secret life of sneaking, deceit, and lies and I am so ashamed of myself! I have overwhelming guilt and shame and I know that those feelings are not of God!
So if you're reading this, please pray for me! I am starting a journey that is very scary and I will need support!
This blog will be dedicated to my journey!
Prayig for u! We all have some kind of crutch.... mine is smoking which I too am bwecoming ashamed and needing deliverance from.... we are all dirty rags,,, lol,,,, but God loves us anyway! We as humans need to Let God take the rags and turn them into riches for his glory.... our biggest trials and turbulation will be our greatest vicories! When Goddelivesr you... you will then have the ability to help others through what you learned.... so many people struggle and those of us that do in any area are called to help others. Praying for you.... and please do not let this break you.... God has already won this! Keep your chin up.... stay strong... and PRAISE GOD! Love u and im here if you need me! Lifting you up and praying!
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